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Kerry King was right. maybe I'm just cynical lately, but the more I listen to Slayer and Lamb of God, the more share the same feelings.
"Just a statistic in the shadows of the real world
The system's failing you just the way it failed me
Hell is home on the concrete where the city bleeds
America - home of the free - land of fucking disenchantment
Despair, emptiness
Isolation rapes you everyday
Face down taste the dust, digging deeper in your grave
Haven't found a reason
Haven't found a thing to fucking live for
Godless he doesn't care"
"Hate heals, you should try it sometime
Strive for Peace with acts of war
The beauty of death we all adore
I have no faith distracting me
I know why your prayers will never be answered
God hates us all. "
"I got my own philosophy
I hate everyone equally
You can't tear that out of me
No segregation -separation
Just me in my world of enemies"
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[19 Jun 2003|12:39pm] |
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And You Will Know Us By The Trail Of Dead - How Near, How Far |
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Clair complained that i don't update enough. So here you go clair. She also tried to hurt me last night, but that's ok. I'm really bored and i want visitors this weekend. I'll be all alone. So come hang out with me.
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[06 Jun 2003|01:05pm] |
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Pavement - Elevate Me Later |
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Who wants to give me a ride to New Haven today? please. sometime around 3:30 or so. I'll love you forever and give you gas money. PLEASE. Call me 860.796.1688
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[22 Apr 2003|12:56pm] |
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Sparta - Air |
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So I'm home from Vegas. I had an awesome trip, it was a lot of fun. A much needed break from work and very refreshing. it definatly put a lot of things in perspective for me. Life is going pretty good for a change. I'm happy with they way things are turning out.
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[14 Apr 2003|11:06am] |
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Sparta - Air |
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I was told to update this thing by claire. I'm going to Vegas on Wednesday. I can't wait. I've needed a vacation. ok. I'm done i have to go back to work now.
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| Fuck that |
[21 Mar 2003|07:33pm] |
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I love how my friends never call me. They make plans with each other, but never call me. I'm through with it, If i don't hear from you, You out. don't expect a call from me, don't call me for help don't expect anything that you wouldn't expect from stranger. This goes for IM's also. IF you don't IM me, expect even less. Cuz you don't even take the time to make a phone call. Fuck you and you and you. I've got something for you all and its bitter and you aren't gonna like it.
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working sucks. Ever since i've come home from Toronto, my insomnia has been worse. I can't sleep for shit. movie watching every night. it sucks not sleeping. blah. this update was for Alyssa. this update is now is done, as am i.
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[22 Nov 2002|02:10pm] |
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I have this strange feeling today. I'm not quite sure what it is. Its almost like a mix of anticipation, anxiety, and elation. I don't know why, cuz I'm not expecting anyone, or have anything big in the near future. I really feel like getting in my car today after work and just driving. I don't care where. Just somewhere far. Canada, Buffalo, Philly, Hammonds plains Nova Scotia, Providence(well that's not far but neither is the next one) Pittsfield Mass, Virginia. Anyone want to take me in for the weekend? I can cook, clean and I'm house broken. All I ask for is a dry, semi warm place to sleep and maybe some cuddling. I just wanna get away.
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[15 Nov 2002|12:01pm] |
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Nice Guys Finish Last
I got this from my friend Cassandra?s page. I know I've seen it before but I read it again, and it still rings so true with me. if I didn't know any better id say I pulled a fight club and my other personality wrote it. I hate how true it is, and how I've lived through it, how I keep living through it. I've had a few realizations lately, I don't care about sex, I don't even want it right now. I just want that pre-marital state. Where I have someone to come home to, to cook for, to rub my back, to cuddle with and watch movies. To fall asleep next to and to wake up next to. Fuck I miss that so much. Waking up next to someone made my day so much better. I just wish I had someone to share my life with, as boring as it is. Jesus is it to much to ask for? I just want the simple life. To quote Weezer?s The good life "Broken, beaten-down can't even get around without an old-man cane I fall and hit the ground Shivering in the cold, I'm bitter and alone ... Screw this crap, I've had it! I ain't no Mr. Cool"
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| Long time no talk |
[06 Nov 2002|02:29pm] |
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Hot Water Music - I Was on a Mountain |
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I've been lazy. That is all. It takes to much to try and keep up two online journals. Plus when your computer crashes, its even harder.
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| My Boring life |
[22 Oct 2002|04:32pm] |
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been a while since i wrote in here. life has been boring. I bought x31337x.com. gonna make it my online portfolio and a place to order prints. its gonna take me forever to scan all the prints in. work is sooo slow. nothing to do at all.
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[08 Oct 2002|03:07pm] |
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finally gonna update. I am soo lazy. more like busy. Trying to get test done. parents are pressuring me. They don't understand how tough it is. and they also don't understand that i'm not gonna be getting a tech job. The tech market is soo saturated with people, meanwhile the tech jobs are drying up as company's cut back and go under. I should just go to culinary school I found a vegetarian culinary school in NYC. I would love to cook. i'm gonna talk to my parents about that tonight. I love computers and all, but it just might not be feasible to get a computer oriented job right now that. I have no idea what a chef makes. i guess one day i would love to own a vegan and vegetarian bakery/restaurant.
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[16 Sep 2002|03:58pm] |
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Hot Water Music - The End |
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Boston was good. Went to Plea for Peace, Snapcase was good but they didn't play incarnation. :(. Thursday Fucking rocked. they played an amazing set. I saw my friend Pat b. there. he was enjoying himself. He hoped in the pit and fucked shit up like an 18 year old even tho he's 30. hehe. I love that guy. he had never seen Thursday before, she liked them a lot from what I can tell. Saturday we went to Start. Got my drink on before, Took a fucking crowded T ride. Everyone looked the same. But I drank and Danced all night. It was a good time. I hate to leave Boston.
Edited for content.
I mus make some ammendment to this journal entry. I stayed with Veronica, who is the best fucking host the world. I love that girl. it was the best time i have ever had in boston(no lie). we need to go back. i miss veronica. she rocks. i love her.
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[10 Sep 2002|06:57pm] |
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Got pulled over last night. the cop said i was doing 87 in a 55. i'm pretty sure i wasn't doing 87. but either way that's reckless driving, which means he could have arrested me and impounded my car. but because i had no prior record, and he was sooo generous, he let me go ROR, Released on my Own Recognizance(sp?) . if he wanted to be generous a ticket would have been better. I have a court date Monday Sept 16.
shitty.
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[03 Sep 2002|02:54pm] |
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Clash, The - I Fought The Law |
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So Veronica is finally gone :( I am thoroughly sad. I miss her already. I need to get my life in order. Like really bad. I'm going to start using my Palm Pilot again. I have to keep myself focused and organized. I'm not gonna let myself fail at this. that's all for now. time to go back to work.
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[30 Aug 2002|01:12pm] |
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This past week has been good. Spending a lot of time hanging out with Veronica. Who by no small coincidence is the coolest girl around. We all went to Hell Tuesday night. A good time was had by all. Got my E-code head lights. hopefully I'll get those in soon. everyone is leaving for school and it sucks. I'm gonna miss Veronica. she has been the person I have gotten closest to this summer. she's only gonna be in Boston so she isn't far. I promised her I'd come visit often. I'm gonna go back to work now. I'll write more later.
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[05 Aug 2002|01:17pm] |
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Face To Face - You've Done Nothing |
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so its been a while since I updated this thing. not much is going on. working a lot still. no change with the love life. one a shitty note, the window lifter bug with the 02 MKIV golf-line finally affected my car. On Saturday night/Sunday morning my passenger window fell into the door and would not come up. I brought it in to the dealer this morning. I want to do sooo much to this car, but alas its all soo expensive and I don't want to void my warranty. I dunno we'll see what I find. I really dun wanna be at work right now. I just wish I had more time. I need more hours in the day and more days in the weekend.
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| Waterfest |
[24 Jul 2002|05:49pm] |
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Waterfest Rocked. soo awesome soo many good cars Sooo many idea's. more later
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| Waterfest |
[18 Jul 2002|12:54pm] |
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hot water music - drunken third |
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Waterfest is this weekend I can't wait to go. It will be awesome. I am still confused with Sarah. can't tell how she feels. every time I think I am gonna get to see her I don't. I'm not going to stress this tho. things have a way of working out.
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